The kitchen smells like whatever got made for dinner, and neither person has touched the dishes. She’s standing with her back half-turned, arms crossed, not toward the door and not toward him — somewhere in between, like the decision hasn’t been made yet. “I’m sorry” got said four minutes ago. Meant it, more or less. There’s been waiting for the exhale, the shoulder-drop, the moment where she turns and the temperature in the room shifts back to something livable. It hasn’t come. So now there’s a man standing there with his apology rejected and his patience running out, and a sentence forming somewhere in the back of his throat: I don’t know what you want from me.
The real apology — the kind that actually lands, that gets felt in the body rather than just heard with the ears — is not the words that got said. Not the delivery. Not the tone, the eye contact, or whether the moment was chosen well. The problem runs deeper than technique. A real apology is one of the hardest things a man will ever attempt in a close relationship, and the reason most men fail at it isn’t stubbornness or selfishness. It’s that they’ve never seen it done. Not once. Not by their fathers, not in the movies, not anywhere in the field of masculinity they grew up in. They’re attempting something never taught, using tools never built for the job.
This is a guide to what a real apology actually requires — the neuroscience underneath it, the patterns that kill it before it starts, the exact steps that make it land, and the one thing men almost never hear about the relationship between repair and intimacy. A relationship with a repair problem — and most have one — starts here.
The Moment Most Men Recognize
Here’s the scene almost every man in a long-term relationship has lived through at least once. Maybe this week.
An argument happened. Something that shouldn’t have been said got said — a raised voice, a dismissal of what she was trying to communicate, cold and quiet silence at exactly the wrong moment. Later, when the heat drops a few degrees, an apology gets attempted. “I’m sorry.” Maybe some details added: “I’m sorry I raised my voice.” Then waiting. She gives a look that carries about twelve different messages simultaneously, and almost none of them are “thank you, we’re fine now.” “Okay,” in the voice that does not mean okay. Or nothing at all, and she goes back to whatever she was doing. And there’s a walk away with the specific feeling of having tried to pay for something with the wrong currency — like the thing got done and the thing didn’t work, and somehow that’s her fault.
That moment, and the frustration inside it, is almost universal. And it rests entirely on a misunderstanding about what an apology is supposed to do.
Most men treat an apology as a transaction. Words get deposited into the emotional register with the expectation of a corresponding withdrawal of tension, distance, and grievance. The formula is: apology issued → conflict resolved → relationship returns to baseline. When the formula fails — when she doesn’t receive the apology as expected — the natural conclusion is that the formula is right and something about her is broken. She’s stubborn. She holds grudges. She’s impossible to please. This conclusion feels reasonable in the moment and is almost always wrong.
The formula is wrong. That’s what’s broken.
What landed, when the “I’m sorry” arrived, was something closer to this: a man who wants this to be over, wearing the costume of a man who understands what he did. Her nervous system, trained by every interaction the two of them have ever had, is not processing the words. It’s processing the body — jaw tension, whether the chest is open or armored, whether the eyes are holding hers or hunting for an exit. And what it read, in those few seconds, was not remorse. It was impatience in a submission costume. The apology didn’t fail because she’s holding a grudge. It failed because it wasn’t a real apology. It was a request for things to be okay again, dressed up in the language of accountability.
The Mechanism: What Her Nervous System Is Actually Evaluating
John Gottman spent four decades studying couples at the University of Washington, and one of his central findings is deceptively simple: it’s not the intensity of conflict that determines whether a relationship survives — it’s the quality of repair. Couples who fight badly but repair well stay together. Couples who fight rarely but repair poorly drift toward divorce. The apology, done right, is repair. Done wrong, it’s a second wound.
The reason poorly-executed apologies make things worse is neurological. Stan Tatkin, a clinical psychologist and developer of the Psychobiological Approach to Couple Therapy (PACT), explains that the brain processes relational threat through the same circuitry it uses for physical danger. When she comes with pain — telling him that he hurt her, dismissed her, made her feel invisible — her amygdala is already activated, running a background scan on every micro-expression, vocal tone, and physical posture. Not irrational. This is what every human nervous system does when trust has been violated: scanning for evidence that the threat is real or resolved.
What she’s scanning for is not the words. Words are a tiny fraction of the data. She’s scanning for coherence — whether body, tone, breath, and eye contact tell the same story as the mouth. Apologize while the jaw is tight, while the chest is closed, while the body is angled toward the door — when the behavioral signal is “I want this to be over” even as the words say “I’m sorry” — her nervous system picks up the incongruence. Trust doesn’t increase. It decreases. Fresh evidence now exists that the language of remorse can be performed without actually being inhabited. That evidence is worse than no apology at all, because it tells her something about the capacity for genuine accountability. That the version of him who can really be with her pain may not exist.
Sue Johnson, founder of Emotionally Focused Therapy, frames this through attachment theory. Her research confirms what clinical experience had suggested: adult romantic partners function as attachment figures, the same way parents function for children. When a rupture happens — when one partner causes harm — the injured partner goes into an attachment panic, not just a “we had a bad argument” discomfort. The question her nervous system is asking isn’t “will you apologize?” It’s “can I count on you when things get hard? Are you actually here for me?” The transactional apology answers that question with a no, because it communicates a desire for the tension to resolve more than a desire to understand what happened to her.
Helen Fisher’s neuroimaging work at Rutgers University showed that being rejected by a romantic partner activates the same brain regions as cocaine withdrawal — the caudate nucleus and ventral tegmental area, core reward-circuitry structures. A failed repair attempt is not a neutral event. It triggers something close to physical pain. A woman standing half-turned away in the kitchen isn’t being dramatic about what’s happening in her body. Her nervous system is genuinely in distress, and it has learned, from the pattern of previous apologies, whether they tend to make things better or worse. Her skepticism is not a character flaw. It’s pattern recognition.
The Repair Credibility Gap — the distance between the apology offered and the apology she needs to receive — closes only through coherence between words and body, stated remorse and subsequent behavior, promises and actual change. The gap can’t be closed in a single conversation. It closes over time, through repeated evidence. But it can be widened enormously by one thing: delivering another false apology and expecting a different result.
The Lie: What Conventional Advice Gets Wrong About Saying Sorry
The standard advice about apologies — the kind found in most relationship articles, pop psychology books, and even a fair amount of couples therapy — tends to focus on delivery. Choose the right moment. Use “I” statements. Be sincere. Don’t get defensive. All of this is true and almost none of it touches the actual problem.
The first lie conventional advice tells is that the apology is about communication. It isn’t. It’s about accountability and behavioral change. An apology can be communicated perfectly — proper timing, careful language, appropriate emotional register — and still be functionally worthless without backing from changed behavior. The apology is not the repair. It is the announcement of the repair. The repair is everything that comes after: the weeks and months of demonstrating, through actual behavior, that something changed. Couples who fixate on the language of the apology while ignoring the behavior that follows it are like a contractor who writes a beautiful proposal and never shows up to do the work.
The second lie is that the goal of an apology is resolution. This is the transactional model — apology issued, tension resolved, relationship returns to baseline. But most ruptures in a long-term relationship don’t have baselines to return to. They accumulate. They layer. The argument about the dishes isn’t about the dishes. The argument about the dishes is the forty-third iteration of a question she’s been asking since year two of the relationship: do you actually see me? Apologizing for forgetting to do the dishes addresses the surface incident. It leaves the real question completely unanswered. The fight comes back in six weeks wearing a different costume, and the same argument keeps happening without anyone knowing why.
The third lie — and this one causes real damage — is that shutting down or withdrawing after a conflict is a valid form of space-giving. “I needed to collect my thoughts.” “I didn’t want to say something I’d regret.” These justifications are real, sometimes. Emotional regulation before a difficult conversation is legitimate and healthy. But most men don’t withdraw to regulate. They withdraw to escape. The difference is legible in behavior: the man who withdraws to regulate says he needs twenty minutes and comes back when he said he would. The man who withdraws to escape walks out without a word and disappears for three hours. The first move is a pause. The second is abandonment with better branding. Her nervous system knows which one it is, even when the justifications sound identical from the inside.
The deepest lie runs underneath all the others: that apologizing is about saying the right thing. It isn’t. It’s about becoming a man who can tolerate the full weight of his own impact on someone he loves — not to perform accountability, not to end discomfort, but because she matters and what happened matters and the truth of that deserves to be held without rushing away from it. That capacity is not a communication skill. It’s character development. And most of what gets sold as “how to apologize” skips the development entirely and goes straight to the performance. Which is exactly what she can already see through.
The Protocol: Five Steps That Make an Apology Actually Land
The Full Ownership Protocol is not a script. Scripts fail because she can hear them — the memorized cadence, the careful wording that landed flat in couples therapy, the formula. What follows are five elements, not steps in a sequence to perform but components that need to be genuinely understood and embodied. Miss any one and the apology fails. Get all five and there’s a real chance.
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Name the specific behavior, not the general sentiment. Not “I’m sorry about last night.” Not “I’m sorry if I hurt you.” Name the actual thing that happened. “I raised my voice when you were trying to tell me how overwhelmed you’ve been. I talked over you. I told you that you were overreacting when you were asking me to just listen.” Specificity is the first proof of attention paid — of actual presence in that moment rather than autopilot. Vagueness is the first proof of the opposite. An apology that could apply to any argument in the last year is too vague to carry any weight. She needs to know the specific thing got seen, not just that something happened that’s generically regretted.
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Describe the impact from inside her experience, not yours. This is where most men collapse, because it requires something genuinely difficult: temporarily abandoning one’s own narrative and entering hers. Not “I know that must have upset you” — still narrating from the outside. Not “I can imagine how you felt” — still arm’s length. Instead, work to say what it actually felt like to be her in that moment. “When I told you that you were overreacting, you probably felt like the one person who’s supposed to be in your corner just told you your feelings weren’t real. Like trying to reach me costs more than it’s worth.” That requires having paid attention. Not just to the argument but to the pattern — to what she’s been saying, directly and indirectly, for months. Articulate her interior experience with real accuracy, and she knows presence was there. Fail to, and she knows it wasn’t. The accuracy is the proof.
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Own the pattern, not just the incident. Fourteenth time this particular thing has happened — and it probably is — and an apology only for yesterday tells her the limitation right away. She’s been here before. She’s taken the previous apologies and watched the pattern reassert itself within two weeks. An apology addressing only the incident without acknowledging the pattern tells her the crack got seen but not the wall it’s in. “I know this isn’t the first time I’ve shut you down when you tried to bring me something hard. This is a thing I do — I get uncomfortable and I make it about me, and you end up carrying your experience alone. I see that. I want you to know I see the whole of it, not just last night.” That sentence is more threatening to say than anything on this list. Because it requires admitting, out loud, to a pattern of failing her in this specific way. Say it anyway.
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Commit to a specific, observable, testable change. “I’ll do better” is the most useless sentence in the English language. It contains no information. It makes no promises that can be verified or falsified. It is, in practice, nothing. Replace it with something she can actually measure. “When you come to me with something that’s bothering you, I’m going to put my phone down, turn toward you, and listen without problem-solving unless you ask me to. If I feel myself getting defensive, I’m going to say ‘give me a minute’ and breathe before I respond. You’ll be able to see whether I’m doing this or not.” Observable. Specific. Something she can verify. Vague commitments are escape hatches in disguise. They sound like promises and function like exits. Make promises that can be held to. Then hold to them.
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Release the expectation that trust rebuilds on a fixed timeline. The apology’s been given. The behavior and the pattern have been named. Her experience got described and specific change got committed to. And she’s still guarded. She still flinches when the voice gets sharp. She still reads the face before letting herself believe it. And the urge rises: how long is this going to take? The answer is: as long as it takes. Her trust broke on his schedule, through his behavior, over whatever period of time it took to accumulate the damage. It rebuilds on hers. Every expression of frustration that she’s “still not over it” — every implication that she should be further along in the recovery process — resets the Repair Credibility Gap to its maximum width. That frustration communicates the same message as the original transactional apology: whose comfort matters more than her recovery. It isn’t his. If it is, the apology isn’t ready to be given yet.
One note on timing. The protocol above should not be deployed mid-argument, when both nervous systems are dysregulated and nothing either person says will land cleanly. Real apologies require the prefrontal cortex, not the amygdala — capable of genuine reflection rather than reactive defense. Wait until both people have regulated: usually twenty minutes minimum after the acute phase of conflict, sometimes longer. But don’t wait so long that she concludes repair isn’t coming. Hours, not days, in most cases. The window is real and it closes.
The Proof: What the Gottman Research Actually Shows About Repair
The research also identified what Gottman called the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse — four communication patterns that predict relationship dissolution with roughly 93% accuracy when present chronically. Two of them are directly relevant to the apology problem.
Defensiveness, the first relevant Horseman, is the reflex that kills apologies before they start. Defensiveness is a counter-move: faced with a complaint, a complaint gets returned. “I raised my voice because you weren’t listening.” “I’ve been exhausted this week, you can’t expect me to be perfect.” Defensiveness treats her grievance as an attack requiring counterattack rather than a pain requiring acknowledgment. Every defensive response sends one message: discomfort at being criticized matters more than her experience of being hurt. The Full Ownership Protocol is incompatible with defensiveness. Step 2 — genuinely describing her interior experience — can’t be delivered while simultaneously explaining why the behavior was actually reasonable.
Contempt, the second Horseman and the strongest single predictor of relationship failure, is worth understanding because it often develops downstream of repeated failed repair. Contempt is dismissiveness, eye-rolling, mockery, the sustained belief that a partner is beneath serious regard in some fundamental way. Gottman found that contempt is almost never a character trait someone walks into a relationship with. It accumulates. It’s the fossilized residue of complaints that went unaddressed, apologies that never arrived, ruptures papered over rather than repaired. A woman who seems to hold contempt for her husband — who rolls her eyes, who dismisses him — usually got there through years of bringing him pain and watching him deflect, minimize, and withdraw rather than staying to repair it. The contempt is not the disease.
The contempt is what the disease looks like after years without treatment.
Gottman also identified what he called the 5:1 ratio — the finding that stable, satisfying relationships maintain a ratio of five positive interactions for every negative one. This is often cited in the context of general positivity, but it applies specifically to repair. Every failed apology, every withdrawal after a conflict, every minimization of her experience, is a negative that chips away at the ratio. And every genuine repair — every apology that lands, every moment of staying in the room with her pain rather than retreating from it — is a positive that rebuilds the buffer. The math is not complicated. The execution is the hard part.
One more data point: a 2011 study in the Journal of Experimental Social Psychology by Tyler Okimoto and colleagues found that people who refused to apologize reported higher self-esteem in the short term than those who did apologize. This explains something most advice ignores: the real cost of apologizing well is not social or relational — it’s psychological. A genuine apology requires tolerating a drop in one’s own sense of self-integrity, sitting inside the feeling of having done something harmful without immediately armoring against it. That cost is real. Men who won’t apologize properly aren’t always selfish. Sometimes they’re just unprepared for the psychological weight of it. Understanding the cost doesn’t eliminate it. But it reframes the challenge from “why won’t he just apologize” to “what does it actually take to tolerate genuine accountability?”
The Hard Truth: What Shame Is Doing to These Apologies
Take a man who spent the better part of two years in a relationship running apologies that looked right from the outside and felt hollow from the inside. He knew the words. He could deliver them on cue. But he was always, at some level, watching himself deliver them — tracking her response, checking whether it was landing, already calculating whether he’d done enough to close the file. What he couldn’t do, because he genuinely didn’t know how, was stop performing accountability and start inhabiting it. The difference is shame. He was running from it the entire time.
Shame is the engine underneath every failed apology, and it’s rarely talked about directly. Guilt says I did something bad. Shame says I am bad. When someone you love tells you that your behavior hurt them, the first wave isn’t remorse. For most men — men who were raised to equate being needed with being capable, who have defined their identity around being solid and reliable and not being the source of damage — the first wave is shame. And shame, unlike guilt, demands immediate resolution. It cannot be sat with. It screams for an exit.
The exits are all familiar. Defensiveness: “I wasn’t that bad, and here’s why.” Minimization: “You’re being too sensitive.” Counter-accusation: “Well you do this too.” Flooding the room with remorse: “I’m terrible, I’m the worst, you should leave me.” That last one is especially tricky because it looks like vulnerability. But it’s a trap — it shifts the focus from her pain to a personal identity crisis and forces her to become the caretaker of the man who harmed her. Real accountability doesn’t collapse into self-attack. It stays specific and stays present: this happened, it caused this harm, and the critical detail is that change is underway.
The physical sequence of a shame response is worth knowing because the intervention point is in the body before it reaches the mouth. When the hard thing gets said — the accurate observation about behavior that the ego would rather not hear — the jaw tightens. Shoulders rise. Chest contracts. Breathing goes shallow. This happens in roughly two to three seconds, before a conscious decision about how to respond even forms. In those two to three seconds, the nervous system is running a threat assessment: is this an attack or information? For most men, being told they’ve hurt someone they love reads as an attack, and the threat response launches the defense protocol automatically.
The intervention is in that window. Catch the physical cascade — feel the jaw, notice the chest contracting — and interrupt it with a single conscious breath, and a gap opens between stimulus and response. Viktor Frankl, who had considerably more extreme circumstances to work with, described this gap as the last human freedom: between stimulus and response lies the freedom to choose. In a kitchen argument, the gap is two seconds. The choice in that gap is exit through defense or entry through presence. Every choice of presence over defense does two things simultaneously: delivers a better apology, and builds the capacity to deliver better apologies in the future. The gap widens with practice. Not much at first. Measurably over months.
There’s one more thing that nobody tells men about shame and accountability: learning to hold shame without running from it builds trustworthiness that extends well past crisis moments. Knowing that being wrong can be tolerated — that being confronted with impact doesn’t produce shattering or defense mode — lets her relax in a way she probably can’t fully articulate. She becomes more willing to bring her honest experience forward, which means actually knowing her instead of knowing the version of herself she’s learned to protect from him. That’s what emotional intelligence in a relationship actually looks like: not performing empathy, but building the structural capacity to receive truth without it becoming a threat. The stone wall that goes up when things get hard is not protection. It’s a different kind of damage, slower but just as real.
What’s on the other side of learning to apologize well — really learning it, in the bones, not just in vocabulary — is something most men don’t expect. It’s not just better arguments or faster resolutions. It’s a different quality of intimacy. The deepest closeness in a long-term relationship isn’t built in harmony. It’s built in rupture and repair, in the moments where everything went sideways and someone stayed anyway, proving the capacity to be with her in the worst of it rather than retreating to comfort. The couples who last aren’t the ones who never hurt each other. They’re the ones who prove, repeatedly, that hurt will be acknowledged and repaired. That the relationship is stronger than any single breach. That there is no place so broken that it can’t be rebuilt, as long as both people are willing to do the work of honest repair.
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Common Questions About Real Apologies
Why doesn’t my wife accept my apologies even when I genuinely mean them?
Because sincerity in the moment doesn’t predict behavioral change over time, and she’s learned this from experience. Her nervous system is not evaluating the quality of the current remorse. It’s evaluating the apology against the pattern of all previous apologies and the behavior that followed them. Sincere apologies followed by repeated behavior within weeks means her model has been correctly updated: in-the-moment sincerity doesn’t translate to lasting change. Her resistance isn’t stubbornness. It’s pattern recognition based on the actual track record. The path forward isn’t a better apology in isolation. It’s consistent behavioral change over enough time that her nervous system revises its prediction. Gottman’s research confirms that words establish intent; behavior establishes credibility. Both are needed.
What is the “but” problem in apologies and how do I stop doing it?
Every word after “but” in an apology is a retraction of every word before it. “I’m sorry I raised my voice, but you weren’t listening” does not contain an apology. It contains a complaint wearing an apology as camouflage. Her nervous system processes the “but” as the real message — the reasons outweigh her experience — and dismisses everything before it. Genuine context worth sharing belongs in a separate conversation, after the repair is complete. Context is not irrelevant. But the moment of apology is not the moment for defense. Mixing genuine contrition with justification produces something she will never be able to trust, because the two messages cancel each other out. Deliver the apology clean. Save the context for later, when there’s evidence that the accountability is real and what’s being offered can actually be heard.
How do I apologize for a pattern of behavior, not just a single incident?
Name the pattern explicitly and own it. Don’t just apologize for what happened yesterday — acknowledge that it’s an architecture built over time. Something like: “This isn’t the first time I’ve handled your pain this way. I get uncomfortable and I make it about me, and you end up carrying your experience alone. I’ve done this enough times that you’ve had to learn to stop expecting it to be different. I want you to know I see that.” The pattern acknowledgment does something the incident-level apology can’t: it tells her attention has been paid not just to arguments but to her experience across the full stretch of the relationship. That level of observation is rare. When it’s genuine, she can feel the difference. The pattern apology is harder to deliver because it requires more honest self-examination, and that’s exactly why it carries more weight when it arrives.
Does my wife have to forgive me if I apologize properly?
No, and this is the part most men resist. Forgiveness is not a response owed in exchange for a well-executed apology. Repair is what gets done — acknowledging the harm, changing the behavior, rebuilding trust through consistent action over time. Forgiveness is what she does, on her timeline, in her own way, and sometimes not at all. An apology contingent on receiving forgiveness in return is still a transaction — a longer one with more steps, but a transaction. The moment accountability becomes use (“I did everything right, now you have to meet me halfway”), the thing that makes repair possible gets lost: the willingness to do the right thing without a guarantee of reward. She is not obligated to make anyone feel better about having hurt her. Focus on the repair. Let forgiveness arrive when and if it arrives.
What should I do when my wife brings up something I already apologized for?
Don’t say “I already apologized for that.” Those words reveal that apology is being treated as an event that closes a case rather than one component of an ongoing repair process. Something from months ago getting raised usually means one of two things: the original repair was incomplete, or something current triggered the memory and the wound still carries charge. Neither of these is a power play or a grudge. When something still hurts, it still hurts — regardless of what was said in a previous conversation. The right response in that moment is to re-open the conversation, not remind her of prior efforts. Ask what’s still being carried. Listen without defending. The fact that it’s still being talked about is information about the status of the repair, not evidence of unreasonableness. Use it.
How long does it take to rebuild trust after repeatedly poor apologies?
There’s no fixed timeline, and treating it as a question of time is part of the problem — it shifts focus from the quality of the repair to the clock. Trust rebuilds through consistent evidence, not through elapsed duration. Philippa Lally’s 2009 research at University College London found that behavioral habits take an average of 66 days to become automatic. But behavioral change in a relationship isn’t just about habits — it’s about her nervous system updating its prediction based on repeated observations of actual behavior. Some changes get noticed within weeks. Others, particularly around patterns that go deep, may take a year or more of consistent evidence before her body stops bracing when the old trigger appears. The variable that matters most is not time. It’s the ratio of genuine behavioral evidence to the depth of the damage. That ratio is controllable. Start there.
Is there a difference between apologizing well and being a doormat?
Yes, and it’s important. A genuine apology comes from a position of groundedness — acknowledging real harm because the harm matters and she matters, not out of need for her approval or because apologizing is easier than standing by something actually believed. A doormat apology comes from anxiety: apologizing preemptively, apologizing for things that weren’t actually wrong, or capitulating to keep the peace when honest disagreement would serve both people better. The emotionally disciplined man can distinguish clearly between “I caused harm and I own it” and “she’s upset and I’ll say anything to make it stop.” The first is accountability. The second is a different kind of evasion. Real strength in a relationship includes the capacity to apologize fully when wrong and to hold ground clearly when not. Both require the same underlying quality: the ability to tell the truth about what’s actually happening, without distortion in either direction.
What does repair look like when the damage is severe — repeated betrayal, long-term emotional unavailability?
When the damage is significant, a single apology — even a genuinely excellent one — is the beginning of a much longer process, not a sufficient response. What’s needed is sustained behavioral change over a meaningful period, visible and consistent enough for her nervous system to update its threat assessment. This often requires professional support — not because the relationship is beyond help, but because the patterns that created the damage usually have deep roots that are difficult to see clearly from inside the relationship. Couples therapy with a Gottman-trained or EFT-trained therapist provides structure and accountability genuinely difficult to replicate alone. An apology opens the conversation. The rebuilding is measured in months and years of behavior. The only question worth asking is whether the work will happen without a guarantee of how it ends. If it will, there’s a real chance. If it won’t, that’s information she deserves to have.
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